Celestial Guilt

Tonight I’m all set to not watch Jupiter

as it comes the closest to Earth it’s been since 1963,

 

the year after my dad’s birth and the year before

Picasso paints his fourth Head of a Bearded Man.

 

They say the midwife thought Picasso was stillborn,

weak and quiet as he was, slow to wear his own life.

 

They don’t say much about my dad and I think history

overlooks a lot. But I’m happy for the painters

 

and planets out there, at least some of us are glorious.

Despite preacher-talk and what I’ve envied in nature,

 

I actually don’t think there’s enough glory to go around.

Anyway: Jupiter’s just one of those things people remember

 

to care about, or pretend to care about, like when we’re all

in pieces and some helpful soul says well Jupiter’s in Pisces,

 

which it is right now by the way. It’s not quite fact,

this link between constellations and the human condition,

 

but I’m not opposed to codifying the astrology charts

if it makes dating and choosing world leaders easier.

 

Have you ever thought about how many beliefs

are held together by the word maybe?

 

You’ll be able to see Jupiter tonight

even if you live in a big city.

 

My dad has an idea for a novel

he’ll write in retirement.

 

The midwife left Picasso to die

a historically insignificant fate on the table.

 

(They’re always mad when they say this last thing

but I say the midwife will never get a name

 

in this poem or in any other

so let’s move on.)

 

For dinner I’m going to arrange Brussels sprouts

in the shape of our bloated bulging orbit

 

while hoping perhaps the scientists were off by a few

hundred million miles and Jupiter’s really coming down

 

for one last galactic smooch. I’ve never known anyone

who didn’t romanticize the apocalypse. I’m glad ours

 

is a dramatic species, but I do hope modern medicine

stops here. Please don’t keep any of us alive, even for the drama,

 

to see the next iteration of this phenomenon

in 2129. Let us merrily take all of this for granted.


Also by Alexa Garster

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